I have felt a shift in my outlook and behavior since my horrible experience with my last bowel obstruction. I feel like I have experienced the absolute worst in the last 9 months. For some reason going through all of this has made me feel incredibly grateful to be alive. The joy I sometimes feel is indescribable. Sometime I feel that joy from simply petting my dogs, cooking dinner for Derek or looking at a beautiful sunset.
Today I put my riding pants on, grabbed my boots, hard hat and drove out to the barn. I saddled up my most awesome mare Monique and rode her. I walked, trotted and cantered. I was having so much fun I didn't want to stop. Marion was watching me and said "you better stop!". When I got off, I felt light headed like I was going to pass out but I also felt so WONDERFUL!!! I can still ride even with radiation damage, with an ostomy and with all the crap my body has been through. Marion had me sit down while she unsaddled and unbridled Mo (Marion is so sweet). Marion took a picture today of me Riding Monique. There is no place I would rather be than on the back of a good horse. I still have a lot of stuff to go through...but today is a good day.
2 comments:
Go Mom!!! That sounded like an absolutely wonderful day. You needed it!! I'm super proud of you that you got right back out there. I have the most awesome mom!!
Love you
Thats awesome, I hope that you stay feeling that way. I am so relieved and glad to see you are able to ride no problem. Also- Monique looks really good!!! You need to eat more though, you look thin to me lady!
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