PET scan today

Today is the day that I had my final PET scan that will determine if my cancer is still there and if I will require surgery to remove what I will refer to as my "nether parts". I have had 4 PET scans in the last 9 months. These are usually accompanied by a lot of anxiety on my part with regard to the procedure as well as the outcome. Today I had a sense of peace about this whole situation that I haven't experienced before. Derek offered to drive me and wait for me but I said no....I can do this myself. The two radiation technicians that work at the Imaging Center are wonderful people and have the nicest bedside manner. The entire process takes about 2 hours. The actual scan takes 30 minutes and that is usually the hardest part for me. I guess I am claustrophobic because I have to do a lot of "self talk" to keep myself from freaking out when my shoulders and head are in the scanner. Today I fell asleep during the entire scanning process. I awoke as the technician was shaking me. Two hours had gone by in a blink of the eye. I was so sleepy and when I got home I crawled into bed and slept for another 3 hours. I awoke feeling refreshed. I will know the results of the scan next Wed. As Andrea said to me earlier this week, "The decision has already been made you just don't know it yet". Somehow that comforts me.