Depression

I have been very anxious and depressed today. It started with my feeling very crabby about everything and now it has manifested itself into a depression. I think it is because I had to call the Doctor to schedule the high resolution CT scan of my lung. It has been almost 2 months since I got the great news that the tumor in my pelvis is completely gone. I also got the not-so-great news that the PET showed a 5 mm "spot" on my lung that wasn't seen before. I have been so optimistic until today. Today has been full of "what ifs". I have felt very exhausted today and every little pain or twinge makes me think "Oh NO.... I am feeling bad because the cancer has metastasized!". I haven't felt this depressed in a long time. I got a very poor nights sleep last night. I am heading off to bed early tonight in hopes that I can get some rest.